Idk its 5:36 AM, I aint slept, I am thinking of how shitty I treated Samegame, Wooper, Clock, Apple and I think some others but I cant remember. I was just a shitty person at 15-16, words hurt, even coming from someone that young and I said and did way too much stupid shit, if any of them see this I'm sorry. I still think im directly responsible for why Samegame and Clock Lock left the discord and I feel like shit and I hate it. I'm rambling and not making any sense probably but im trying to remember shit like 3 years ago. I remember I really liked and almost idolized Samegame when I first met him, he was just so cool and I remember staying up late on night talking with him and Tang in a vc just talking about life. Its a memory that makes me happy but I just hate that I started fighting with Samegame. I also miss people that used to be in the LL discord, Psychonerd, whenever I was in my Freshman year of highshool some reason I always got really happy to see him, I dont know why, bakusatsuou or Knock and Lock. I remember just him being there when I joined and dudes like vanished. Tang Lock idk what happened to him. Wooper I feel like since 2022 I have a ton in common with her, just wish I could talk to her about interests and stuff, UFO Clock, I went insane in 2022 that's why I disappeared after February and made a new discord. But I have OCD and was worried all this shit would come back to haunt me and someone is gonna use it to ruin my life. So anything remotely edgy I just would get fucking paranoid about, UFO Clock, everything he said and did triggered that but behind that edge he was a good person and I actually miss him.
Theres more I could ramble on and say but, idk what to fuckin say my head hurts thinking and trying to remember. Either way it probably sounds dumb and its only been 4 years but this silly little online group has really become an important part of my life
